Steel Kitten: education and learning

Showing posts with label education and learning. Show all posts
Showing posts with label education and learning. Show all posts

I'm seeing the dawn in this morning while writing this. I had an allergy attack in the night and finally gave up on sleep at 4:30am. I thought I'd tiptoe around, make a cup of tea and start my day quietly but the cats had other ideas. They started howling about two minutes after they saw me come out of the bedroom, not for food but to go out and play in the garden. We don't let them out until 6-7am because we have some large foxes in the area and the last time we let one of them out early there was a screaming confrontation on the lawn with one of them. I've retreated to my hobby room with tea and box of tissues but now they know I'm up they're determined to crack me. I have Baldrick wailing on this side of the door and Missy on the other with Georgie bringing up the rear by ripping at the landing carpet for good measure (Georgie and Baldrick still don't get on after a year so have to be kept apart). 


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Last week was a tiring week. As I thought it would, giving blood wiped me out completely, despite taking iron supplements, and I had sore itchy eyes from exhaustion pretty much up until Sunday morning. When I woke up Monday morning I finally felt rested so I spent the morning weeding, cleaning and tidying the area around the front door and the afternoon doing a deep clean in our bedroom. Can't quite be sure but I think that might have had something to do with my sneezing fit at 4am, although why it took so long to emerge I'm not sure. Seems a bit unfair to be fine all evening and scuppered in the night. Still, I decided to make an early start on my day so I can be finished early this afternoon. I’m supposed to be going on a track day with Martin at Cadwell Park shortly so he can test out the recent modifications he’s made to his vintage sports car but when he took it to fuel up about midday the throttle kept sticking and he couldn’t get it to tick over. He’s on the drive trying to fix it at the moment but it’s not looking good.




I've nearly finished knitting my jumper. I made it through all of the Downton Abbey series and the film as well. I'm currently blocking it before sewing the pieces together and then I have a deep rib neckline pick up the stitches for and knit. I only have one set of mats to pin on so I have to do it piecemeal. I knit so infrequently it's not worth having several sets just so I can do all the pieces at once and because of the cats I can't block on the floor or on a table. I'm aiming to have all the pieces blocked by Saturday so I can finish the ribbing by the time I go back to work next Tuesday.

The next thing I knit I'll remember to block as I go after I finish each piece.


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We took Audrey out in the week to a local garden centre that had a boutique clothing section. This was her first outing since the lockdown last March and her longest walk since her hip operation seven weeks ago. She was looking for an outfit for her granddaughter's wedding in October. I took the opportunity to have a look at some of the autumn clothing that had just come in for knitting inspiration. Most of the knitwear was thin acrylic and hung like sacks but I did like the overall idea of a few items and have been searching on the internet for possible patterns for my next project. I do like boat necks and batwings so with a little modification to the shaping something like below would be nice and would help use up balls of wool.







I also like ponchos. Something about having my arms free appeals.





And of course the long cardi. Another one of my staple favourites.


I've also got quite interested in a couple of patterns for fitted ribbed cardigans in my 1950s Knitting Illustrated book but the pattern is spartan to say the least. The main pattern is for a 'younger' lady while the pattern for the 'mature' lady mentions a few modifications but that's it. I'm not kidding myself anything other than the 'mature' lady' pattern will fit. Patterns have come a long way since then thank goodness. 


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I made the mistake of booking a shooting lesson for Saturday afternoon thinking I would be ok but I was tired and shot badly. I don't even think I made 20% of what I aimed for. It was hot and the thunderflies were bad. I ended up sweaty, itchy and breadcrumbed with them. 

I've been hoping to get enough training and experience from a tutor so that I could hire a gun and enjoy some quiet target practice without having to have a licence, but it seems the law changed two years ago so you can’t do that. I have to have a shotgun licence or go out with someone with a shotgun licence. As I don't know anyone with a licence that means I have to either pay for an instructor to be with me all the time, which will get expensive, or apply for a licence. I started the application process on Saturday but it appears due to COVID it will take around six months, as officers are still dealing with a backlog and they only work on the licences for two hours a day. It also means I have to have a gun cabinet fitted in the house and have an inspection by a firearms officer, despite not wanting to own a flipping gun. It doesn't make sense to me. I can apply for a licence, get a gun and store it in my house 24/7 with no gun safety or maintenance training at all. I can walk into a range and start shooting at targets with zero ability. Yet I can have hours of training from an experienced coach and still not be able to rent a well-maintained gun from the range for one hour a week in a well-organised and supervised environment.

It’s an odd system that doesn’t seem to take into account people’s lack of training in handling and maintaining a gun, just their mental and physical fitness to own one. 


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So, while it was a good week knitting-wise everything else was a bit of a fatigued mess. Glad to see the back of it really.


 

I've been meaning to do an update on where I am with some of the goals I mentioned in this post. (I haven't updated on our financial/retirement goals for a long time because we've been at that really boring stage where nothing really interesting happens, just the numbers go up slowly and steadily. However, I will be updating you in the next few weeks because things are going to be a bit exciting soon. I shall say no more!)


Art - ended up expressing myself creatively in a different way to painting - sewing! I haven't done anything with the sewing machine for a couple of years then suddenly I had an urge to pick up the fabric one Sunday evening and make myself a couple of face masks. Can't believe I actually did it instead of making excuses, as I have done every week since last year's lockdown! 



Striking while the iron was hot, I decided to make a plastic bag holder with a gorgeous Emma Bridgewater tea towel I was given. I knew I would never use it as a tea towel, as it was too nice to ruin, but wanted to see it every day. The tea towel was already seamed so all I had to do was sew the long edges together and then thread some elastic through the bottom seam. It already had a hanging loop on it.



Because of these two projects, I've slightly adapted this goal to include anything crafty, and this month I have a goal to make a new cover for my buckwheat hull pillow. It's 20 years old and has holes, but is a vital for me to comfortably sleep so I will find a suitable fabric from my stash, use the old cover as a template and reuse the zip. 


Also, I found myself a free art history course to do - History of Art and Western Civilisation - over at the Smarthistory.org site but I haven't started it as I keep being side-tracked. I'm only really interested in the Renaissance and Pre-Raphaelite period, but some of the other historical periods (particularly Egypt) look so interesting I might go through those as well.


The Gothic - After my last post I had a good clear out of my wardrobe, getting rid of anything that didn't 'spark joy'  and went on a hunt for some basic additions to my wardrobe. This is rare for me. I hate a) shopping and b) paying full price for anything 😊 I found only one item I liked but unfortunately it was so poorly made I sent it straight back when it arrived.


Cheap sweatshop clothes made of thin, shiny unflattering material. I'm not sure what I thought it would be made of when I ordered it but lesson learned. I'm back to square one. I'd like find something made of a reasonable-weight cotton or jersey that is sustainably produced and isn't so thin it shows my underwear. It's actually a really tall order.


When I started looking at other aspects of how I dress I realised I have been hiding parts of myself because I don't want to have to deal with other people's silly comments. For example, I like strong, dark coloured nail polishes and winged eyeliner but don't often wear them as they can attract somewhat negative attention. So, last month I ordered a couple of nail polishes - black and petrol blue - and a liquid eyeliner for myself and have started wearing them. I've only had one person comment during a meeting to say I was doing so well to get dressed nicely and do my make-up and nails every day. It was a genuine compliment and made me feel good. 


Jigsaw puzzles - actually managed to get three done in the last month and am on to my fourth. 





Martin made me a jigsaw table for Christmas using the base of an vintage ironwork garden table that the previous owners left behind. He made it so it can sit flat or at various angles and is just the right size for a standard sized 1000 piece puzzle. This is it at the highest angle but I rarely have it up that high, it's usually only about 3-4 standard books high.



Reading - I manage to read five books in January.

Wedlock, How Georgian Britain's Worst Husband Met his Match by Wendy Moore
A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens (better late than never!)
Can't Hurt Me by Dave Goggins
The Sixth Extinction: An Unnatural History by Elizabeth Kolbert
Zero Waste Home by Bea Johnson

I'm happy with that!


Exercise - some good and bad here. Managed 300 crunchies for 24 days, then my birthday happened. I didn't do any that day as my brain talked me out of it, and then the curry and alcohol that night upset my system for days. In the last seven days of the month I did a grand total of 200 crunchies. Oops!Bit of a fail there.


Still, in January I completed 7,400 crunchies, walked/ran 68km and did 27km on the exercise bike (last two days of the month; Martin bought a secondhand one for my birthday and I finally got it set up). I also managed 4 sessions of bodyweight circuits and 3 yoga sessions. I lost 4lbs in weight, no longer have a bad back and my posture has improved. 


Something definitely to be said for strengthening your core!

"They shall grow not old, as we that are left grow old:
Age shall not weary them, nor the years condemn.
At the going down of the sun and in the morning
We will remember them."
Robert Laurence Binyon (1869-1943)




Sorry, I didn't come back before Christmas as I was flat out on work deadlines up to the last minute and then cooking for two days. I finally feel a bit more human today so came back to blog. 

I gave in on the whole journal planner thing...I'm sure you knew I would...and put it on my Christmas list 😀 (somehow, the Daily Stoic Journal also slipped onto my list. I've been eyeing it up for a while). I've been sat here working on the annual forecast part of it, deciding how I want this year to pan out, what I want to focus on and want I want to spend less time focusing on. Things have gone off track for me a bit over the last six months, and I'm not making decisions based on things that are important to me. 



I like the layout of each page because it is based on the Eisenhower decision matrix that I have used and I know works for me. There are weekly, monthly, six-monthly and yearly reviews of the most important self, relationship, passion and work goals.

The Daily Stoic Journal is a bit different. I've wanted to learn about Stoicism for a while but it is difficult to get a good idea of something this complex by just reading a big book. When it comes to learning, I favour learning-by-doing. 




Stoicism was practised by the ancient Greeks and Romans (Marcus Aurelius was the most famous Roman practising its tenets) and developed a philosophy of personal ethics based on using self-control and fortitude as a means of overcoming destructive emotions. This journal is a learning tool, looking at a Stoic idea every week and encouraging self-reflection each day using guided questions. 




I thought it sounded an interesting way to keep those things that are most important in life top of mind, and help me become a bit more centred and grounded. Stress has really been getting to me lately and I need to take a step back and consider whether some things are worth the aggravation. 

There's an interesting article about the benefits of Stoicism here.

So, with less than three hours to go before midnight, it's almost time to out the old and welcome the new. 

Happy New Year!


For years I always thought the 12 days of Christmas started on 21st December and ended on 1st January. It seemed quite a natural time period for it to happen, 20/21st being the Solstice and the official start of Winter and 31st/1st January being the end of the year and the start of the new. 

Then as I grew up I realised that it was the Pagan 12 days of Christmas, and the Christian version started on 25th December (Christ's birth) and ends January 5th (Epiphany; when the three kings/wise men visited Jesus with gifts). 

Somewhere along the way I decided I like the idea of both and so my period of reflection and plans for the future start on 21st and go right through January 5th.

Today I kicked off proceedings by unexpectedly waking up at 4:30am, wide awake for no particular reason but knowing I was not going to be able to sleep again. I didn't purposefully do it to see the dawn but maybe it was in the back of my mind. To be honest I've been very busy at work and stressed about it, so this isn't the first morning I've woken horribly early and got up, but this is the first one where I've got up and not started work. I just sat downstairs at the dinner table with a few cups of tea, reflecting on my job, health, inner and outer life, spirituality and purpose. I then I watched the dawn come up through the mist and rain.

“Our environment, the world in which we live and work, is a mirror of our attitudes and expectations.” — Earl Nightingale

I think this year is going to be a very different one for me because my attitude and expectations are changing by the week. 




So, work is nuts and I've been scarce around here. This time of year my firm does 25-30% of its business so that works out at about three times my usual workload. And I can guarantee one thing that will simultaneously happen at this time of year; I will go mad for planners and organisational journals. Because everything is happening in a whirlwind and I'm lurching madly from one crisis to the next my brain convinces me that if I had some hideously complex life planner it wouldn't happen.

Every year like clockwork I end up buying a journal or diary that I abandon mid-march, pick up again in July, lose track off in August and then November it starts again.

I have tried so many different ways of organising myself and none of them have worked well.

I've done an A4 diary with a day to a page with time slots. Not a chance. Tried it in A5 size. Another nope. Normal diary with a day to a page and no times, both A4 and A5. Nope. Sometimes filled it in, sometimes not. Tried a small pocket diary. Never kept it in my pocket or bag, and kept putting it down. So small I couldn't find it if I put it down because I move a tsunami of stuff around the house every day.

I've done David Allen's Getting Things Done, which involves always getting everything out of your head, onto paper and filed appropriately. I fell at the first hurdle. I couldn't get everything out of my head. I think I have an abnormal amount of thoughts, ideas, imaginings. As fast as I was getting them out they were going in/popping up. Losing battle.

I didn't get on with bullet journals - mainly because I didn't realise they are actually a hobby not a work tool. It took me a ridiculous length of time to put together the structure of it. I want a planner to already have all that stuff. I also couldn't get along with the wasabi tape and sticker business. I haven't got time to colour.

I've had a daily greatness journal, and while that has been the most successful to date I still only kept that up for 90 days because I had been putting off getting started with the smallholding stuff when I got here and that got me going. But the second 90 days? Nope, never happened. I actually found the questions a bit monotonous and I rarely, if ever, went back in the evening to reflect on my day. The only saving grace with that one is that as there are no dates, the next time I want to do a 90 day challenge I can pick it up and fill up the next quarter.

Gratitude journal? Ok when you're in a good mood, disastrous when you're in a bad mood. Once that bile is down on paper there's no going back. My hormone hate can be directed against even sunshine at the wrong time of the month :)

On a week-to-week basis I'm more of a do-er, not a planner. I don't have time really to sit and plan my day, week, month. I get up in the morning and just get on. In my mind I have periods of time when I know I must work and not do anything else, where I want to read and not do anything else, and the rest of the time I fit in what needs to be done. I look around and think "sink needs a clean" "there's a load of washing to be done" "what's the next thing in the inbox" and I just do it.

I have a list on my phone of things to buy and or do in town and I keep a relatively good appointments calendar on there too. I have a work notebook to keep track of work stuff and a personal journal where I focus on my emotional intelligence, self-esteem and mental health. I have a third book where I track my personal development through the films and plays I see, books I read, and programmes I listen to. That last one started because I sometimes beat myself up for not reading/watching enough good stuff so it was quite a surprise when I started writing it down and realised I did.

So, why this post?

Because, of course, I have been suckered in by the promise of another planner. I'm not going to say which one because I don't want to provide free advertising. I don't think I need it, I don't think it will add anything to my already over-pressurised life, but my goodness do I want it. I just can't shake the feeling that I haven't yet found the right planner, THE planner that will somehow be so absorbing and engaging that I will keep using it. And that THIS one could be it!

Then Martin said the fatal "do you want it for Christmas?" and that's where I am tonight.

Struggling over the decision on whether to have another life planner. Hmmm....

As the light has faded and the temperature dipped over the last couple of weeks, I've found myself preparing to nest. Autumn is always a complex time for me, as I get Seasonal Affective Disorder and it starts to kick in around the clocks changing.

I've found myself yawning and craving naps during the day, dragging myself to bed earlier, and sleeping much later in the mornings. I've been craving caffeine and sugar (and unfortunately indulging in it too) which in turn has been giving me stonking blood sugar highs and lows and exacerbated the napping issue. My energy levels have plummeted. 

Over the years I've tried different things to fight off the winter but have come to accept it as a necessary time to rest and recharge. Don't get me wrong, I don't slump for months into a chocolate-fuelled fug of despair. Rather,  I decided to improve what I can within limits and accept what I can't. 

1) I've cut right back on the caffeine, from around 7-10 cups of tea with milk and two sugars, to two small cups of black coffee with no sugar, one early morning and one late afternoon. Monday and Tuesday I had shocking withdrawal symptoms, including migraines and nausea. I'm over the worst of it now but am very shocked at how bad I felt, so much so it is enough that I don't really want to drink tea anymore! Nothing like negative conditioning to put you off something.

2) Talking of negative conditioning, I've cut out the majority of sugar from my diet to try and prevent the highs and lows, and I did it with the help of an Allen Carr book called Good Sugar, Bad Sugar. Allen Carr is the guy that wrote THE book on giving up smoking easily and I hoped this book would be just as good. While I can't agree with some of his science, it has had the extraordinary effect of crushing my white sugar craving. I simply don't want it any more. I think the book uses Neuro-Linguistic Programming to reset your thinking. I'm pleased with how that has worked. 

3) I've upped my level of B and D vitamins, opting to use a mouth spray rather pills, and opened the bedroom curtains at night to let more light in the next morning. I'm aiming to walk 40-45 minutes three times a week, and when I feel fit enough perhaps go back to jogging. I've also ordered some daylight bulbs for my hobby room lights, as I work in there during the day. What I've decided not to do is get a light box. While that would no doubt help, I don't want to force my body to believe it is still summer. Winter is a natural time of rest and I want to embrace that, but I just don't want my body to slow to an agonising crawl. 

4) I have scheduled a few interesting things to see at the cinema. As we're saving for a break away together in January, going out to see plays and shows is a little beyond our budget, especially the ones in London, however, some big productions of the National Theatre are often broadcast through live satellite links to some cinema chains. 

After a good trawl through the listings, we've settled on seeing these between now and the New Year:

Allelujah!(National Theatre Live play)
A Christmas Carol (Simon Callow) 

These next ones are my treats only for me, as they are 3.5 hours of Shakespeare each and Martin doesn't do Ye Olde English. 

Antony and Cleopatra, (National Theatre Live play)

I wanted to see Ian McKellen as King Lear in London but at £250 a ticket it was out of the question. This ticket is a more affordable £19.60 and paid for courtesy of my next Ziffit order!

By the way, these are all on at a local Showcase cinema, of which Martin and I are loyalty card holders, so we can get a 10% discount. 


5) Learn something new. Rather than just vegetating in front of the fire surfing the net, I have decided to find some online courses to do. If you've never come across them before, many universities and colleges offer free courses in all manner of subjects. They are called MOOCs - Massive Online Open Courses - and the following are a list of providers that bring together a vast number of both professional and personal interest courses. 

Futurelearn
OpenLearn
Coursera
edX
Khan Academy

Some courses are available to access at any time, some are only available on certain dates. So far, I've found the following that appeal to me, although I don't really want to do too many at once. I've signed up for the first one

Literature of the English Country House
England in the Time of Richard III
Jane Austen: Myth, Reality and Global Celebrity
Hadrian's Wall: Life on the Roman Frontier
Introduction to Philosophy
Know thyself: the value and limits of self-knowledge

It is truly staggering how many free courses are out there. If you've never done one before, go and have a look at what is available.  

I think this is the first time I've ever put together a plan to keep active in mind, body and spirit during the autumn and winter, and I'm more than a little bit excited about it!
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